Fuck My Life Right Now

Shit that starting to bother me

1. My mother is always putting me down
2. My dad
3. My girlfriend doesn't trust me and threatens to kill her self if we break up
4. People always have something to say about me and my relationship
5. My fathers family looks down at me for not visiting

Really the only thing that keeps me alive are the people who make me happy

I'm in love again and I'm scared

So last time this happen I got my heart broken still unknown why.  Star shows that shes scared of what I might do this summer.  Truth is I won't cheat and never will.  Reason... I'm in love again, and I'm terrified about that. But I'll never show it.

I try to stop thinking of the future but I know how this is going to end.  Even if she says she loves me, love wears out and eventually it will happen.  But I am not going to end it before it happens.  I'm going to just go with the flow, and not fight it.  Just wait for my heart to shatter and then turn cold again.

CHK

Love is in the Air

Guess what everyone I have a new girlfriend (We'll call her Star).  Now I said to my self I would be single for life and etc. but its not as easy as it seems.  See when I'm single I tend to flirt a bit more than the other guys.

My two sisters say that I'm going down the same path as I did with Sky (which I don't believe).  I'm not, I am going to be less obsessive with Star.  Its not that I don't like her (that would be an asshole move if I just went out with her for the hell of it), its just that if I become the same way as before, the same thing is going to happen and boy I do not want a repeat.  Plus I really like Star she's cool, beautiful, and smart.

This relationship started today... its funny how it began, me and Star became very good friends and one day we were noticed by a pupil from our school who said in quote "are you two cuffin' " which we both found very funny.  Everyone though the same (they couldn't drop the subject) so Star and me played along.  Even when we didn't play along we still flirted and looked like a couple.  Then on Sunday we texted the whole day, she said in quote "we talk like a couple so why don't we make it official?" At first I thought she was kidding so I played along (half sadly cause I wished it was true) so I texted back "thought you never asked". Then I kinda believed it was true so I asked her.  She replied...
In dialogue
"Well not really, you see since Sky is my best friend and your ex I have to ask her if it's ok"
I text "awww"
She replies "It's not that I don't like you, its the girl code...sorry...don't be mad"
"I'm not...(10 mins later) really I'm not mad"
Later I figured out she went to sleep...-_-

So long story short Star asked Sky on Wednesday if it was ok, Sky said yes (I wasn't expecting a no) and we've been going out since 6/02/2010

CHK

What happens on an annoying ass day in my dads job?

My Father: Read for an hour
Me: Ok
From 6 to 7
(Reading while listening to music)
My Father: (Rips my headphones off) you can't read like that read for a nother hour
Me: Thats stupid but fine
From 7 to 8
(Reading then at 8 call my dad he's some where in this building)
My Father: Why are you using the phone
Me: I'm not using the phone
My Father: Yes you are
Me: How would you know if your not even here(I'm really getting angry)
My Father: Read till I get there
Me: Fine but I'm hungry
From 8 to 9
My father: (rips phone away) Read
Me: No I already read get out of here with that man (super angry)
My Father: read
Me:No
My Father: (leaves with a serious face)

CHK

My Rules For My life

In my life I created rules to create stability in my life... Here they are

1. Don't ever fight against the weak or females
2. Only fight when violence is use towards you first
3. Do not call women bitches (unless they really deserve it)
4. It is always the woman's choice
5. Do not start fights
6. Never cheat in a relationship
7. (New one) show no emotion of pain

These have helped me in life so far 

CHK

Ummmmm I wonder

 For some reason I've been thinking about death.  People say if something is on your mind alot it is definitely going to happen but I don't think so. It's to early to die.  Lets get something straight at this point I'm to young to die meaning at this point I Decide When To Die

CHK

Rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

So so far I have had a peaceful ... environment (we shall call this ... I guess).  Even though my father has been throwing commands at me and I reject some of them we haven't really fought about them, so I guess we have been "bonding"(such an ugly word).  Ohhhh yea!!!!!!!! me and Sky (If you don't know who she is you have to see the first blog) are talking again and I'm starting to see her as a friend (don't know if that's suppose to be good  or bad).  Ohhh and its my cuzo's birthday today Happy Birthday Riff Randell. And there's this cool girl in my Spanish class ... You know where this is going to go ;).

CHK