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Saturday, June 12, 2010

I'm in love again and I'm scared

So last time this happen I got my heart broken still unknown why.  Star shows that shes scared of what I might do this summer.  Truth is I won't cheat and never will.  Reason... I'm in love again, and I'm terrified about that. But I'll never show it.

I try to stop thinking of the future but I know how this is going to end.  Even if she says she loves me, love wears out and eventually it will happen.  But I am not going to end it before it happens.  I'm going to just go with the flow, and not fight it.  Just wait for my heart to shatter and then turn cold again.

CHK

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Love is in the Air

Guess what everyone I have a new girlfriend (We'll call her Star).  Now I said to my self I would be single for life and etc. but its not as easy as it seems.  See when I'm single I tend to flirt a bit more than the other guys.

My two sisters say that I'm going down the same path as I did with Sky (which I don't believe).  I'm not, I am going to be less obsessive with Star.  Its not that I don't like her (that would be an asshole move if I just went out with her for the hell of it), its just that if I become the same way as before, the same thing is going to happen and boy I do not want a repeat.  Plus I really like Star she's cool, beautiful, and smart.

This relationship started today... its funny how it began, me and Star became very good friends and one day we were noticed by a pupil from our school who said in quote "are you two cuffin' " which we both found very funny.  Everyone though the same (they couldn't drop the subject) so Star and me played along.  Even when we didn't play along we still flirted and looked like a couple.  Then on Sunday we texted the whole day, she said in quote "we talk like a couple so why don't we make it official?" At first I thought she was kidding so I played along (half sadly cause I wished it was true) so I texted back "thought you never asked". Then I kinda believed it was true so I asked her.  She replied...
In dialogue
"Well not really, you see since Sky is my best friend and your ex I have to ask her if it's ok"
I text "awww"
She replies "It's not that I don't like you, its the girl code...sorry...don't be mad"
"I'm not...(10 mins later) really I'm not mad"
Later I figured out she went to sleep...-_-

So long story short Star asked Sky on Wednesday if it was ok, Sky said yes (I wasn't expecting a no) and we've been going out since 6/02/2010

CHK

What happens on an annoying ass day in my dads job?

My Father: Read for an hour
Me: Ok
From 6 to 7
(Reading while listening to music)
My Father: (Rips my headphones off) you can't read like that read for a nother hour
Me: Thats stupid but fine
From 7 to 8
(Reading then at 8 call my dad he's some where in this building)
My Father: Why are you using the phone
Me: I'm not using the phone
My Father: Yes you are
Me: How would you know if your not even here(I'm really getting angry)
My Father: Read till I get there
Me: Fine but I'm hungry
From 8 to 9
My father: (rips phone away) Read
Me: No I already read get out of here with that man (super angry)
My Father: read
Me:No
My Father: (leaves with a serious face)

CHK

Saturday, May 29, 2010

My Rules For My life

In my life I created rules to create stability in my life... Here they are
  1. Don't ever fight against the weak or females
  2. Only fight when violence is use towards you first
  3. Do not call women bitches (unless they really deserve it)
  4. It is always the woman's choice
  5. Do not start fights
  6. Never cheat in a relationship
  7. (New one) show no emotion of pain
These have helped me in life so far 

CHK

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Ummmmm I wonder

 For some reason I've been thinking about death.  People say if something is on your mind alot it is definitely going to happen but I don't think so. It's to early to die.  Lets get something straight at this point I'm to young to die meaning at this point I Decide When To Die

CHK

Monday, April 26, 2010

Rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

So so far I have had a peaceful ... environment (we shall call this ... I guess).  Even though my father has been throwing commands at me and I reject some of them we haven't really fought about them, so I guess we have been "bonding"(such an ugly word).  Ohhhh yea!!!!!!!! me and Sky (If you don't know who she is you have to see the first blog) are talking again and I'm starting to see her as a friend (don't know if that's suppose to be good  or bad).  Ohhh and its my cuzo's birthday today Happy Birthday Riff Randell. And there's this cool girl in my Spanish class ... You know where this is going to go ;).

CHK

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Sunday's

A regular Sunday mourning people say its suppose to be calm and shit. But ummmm where is Mr. Calmness. Let me tell you how my Sunday went -_-


It starts with my brother annoying the crap out of me for the computer. I said I will give it to him when I finish, but he wants it at that moment if it was lying in the middle of his bedroom he wouldn't take it, but if i have it he’s all over it. So I tell him to wait my mom says just give it to him (no homo) but I refused (again no homo). So he pushes me and I push him back and its a fight. I ended up with a not so visible pudgy eye, but I got him good.

Then my mom blames everything on me and starts to scream at me and I swear I was going to go apeshit on the house throwing chairs all around the floor but instead I screamed back. Then she calls my father who comes by later. The whole day I listen to her scream and shout while she is cleaning (typical Dominican mother). I also was watching movies. When my father comes by he gives me a lecture (which was ok) and leaves.
Truth is Sundays are horrible and the only thing that makes it a good day is that school is the next day (no I am serious school is way cooler than home).
CHK

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Guess where I am at 9:00 P.M. ... NOT HOME!!!!!!!!!! >:O

I really want to be home at least one day home early besides being in my fathers job in Wall st. It's not that I hate this place or anything but I do want to go home at some point and sleep. I have been going to sleep too late. On school days I like going to sleep at 10 or 11 tops but since it was spring brake I went to sleep late. So I want to go to sleep early at least one day. I have to wake up at 6 A.M. in the morning tomorrow. And all I have to say to that is ....... I'm going to feel like crap at some point tomorrow like today and yesterday

CHK

So far so good I wonder for how long although

So far so good in school been drama free for about three whole days (might not look like it but that's a lot of days lol). I've also been handing in my homework on time. The best part is I have made haters in my school.

Now I know what you're thinking ... why would I want haters in my life? The answer is easy cause I don't like them either.
Definition of haters- Humans who judge negatively towards others not knowing who they are or just because they have nothing better to do.
Adults judge a lot towards others classy people judge ghetto people and ghetto people judge classy people. I live with the classy people they don't like people who chill in the streets. All they do is talk on the sidewalk and drink and smoke. I understand smoking but really judging others is bad.
My cousin says every one judges but I highly doubt that. I dont judge :)

CHK

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

hmmm what do i want in life?

Good question...

Life

Is crazy

CHK

TRACK STAR!!!!!

Yes yes I've been on the track since the beginning on the school year not the best but I consider my self to kick ass. I might not be the fastest in my team but I'm know to have crazy energy. I also have this signature thing going on i call it the war cry if I'm really tired or slow down in a race all I do I scream yahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I boost and sprint like crazy it's fun letting people think they're passing me but they're really not.

Cross Country is my favorite its running in and out of the woods like its in the beginning of the year all I have to do is jog for 1.5 (3.1 at times) and sprint once I see the finish line. Not as easy as you think. You have to have a lot of stamina for this race.

Indoor season starts in the winter time its in the armory in 168st and Fort Washington. I only do 300 and 600 meters. But my favorite event are relays haven't done one in about 2 months and been craving for one ever since but I'm about the only frosh in the team now and days (except for the noobs in outdoor but we still haven't really seen them run).

Outdoor season, is what I'm doing now same thing as indoor just double the meters which is fun.

Each teammate is a friend and even the ones that are slow get faster. We are the best in Manhattan but we don't have a big group so pretty much us being the best doesn't help us that much. Since we have Stuyvesant which looks like a military compared to us of how many student are in it.

Track has helped me a lot my friends and me running help me get away from getting away from all drama. I guess you can say it is the best thing in my life right now.

CHK

Monday, April 5, 2010

Who am I?

I guess i should start is who am i. Well I'm a high school frosh kid who recently recuperated from a major collapse. I've always been know to be a the happy type kid and no matter what you throw at me I can handle, but the truth is sooner or later it all comes crashing down. My downfall started with my grades and my parents. In 8th i was a cool kid very peaceful and liked by everyone (still am) 93 average student. But when I got to High School my grades started slipping. I was cool with everyone I always get along with everyone.

When the first parent teacher conference came along they took away my iPhone (which till this day and beyond will never get back) my father was not happy. I was always the kid who listen to straight forward commands my family members knew that I was scared of my mother and even more my father so I always listened and if they had complains (which is all of the time) I just pretended to listen. But the more they argued with me and threaten me of taking stuff away and other stuff the angrier I got. So now I'm not afraid of them they both know this because they took everything away like a regular parents do no TV, no facebook, etc... I became really depressed cause of this. I started to like being anywhere that I was away from my parents (still do). By winter I thought I was going to kill myself till something changed me into a happy young man.

It was like I just noticed an angel or something like that lol (we'll call her Sky). She was the reason to do better my reason to live and everything. I didn't care if my parents had something to say I was always happy all the time (I guess you can say I was in love blahblahblah). I always wanted to be with her. We only lasted about 2 months Sky dumped me which lead to me wanting to do and doing crazy things not like killing my self but other thing which now that i think where stupid and embarrassing lol. I was all ways cutting classes, not crying but sad and posting everything felt(although i find nothing wrong with that). I wanted to start smoking drinking etc..., but half of me felt like stupid for falling so hard. None of my friends in school could help me because in school it was heartbreak season and everyone had problems of their own which all ended up on my table. I tried listening and tried to help but I couldn't't. It is impossible to help with a broken heart I say.

But my recuperation came this spring break maybe its the fact that Sky and me are talking again. This whole entire spring break I've been doing my homework and some homework that I owe. I never knew why Sky broke up with me, but I don't want to know I'm good just as friends. But one thing I've learned from this relationship is not to rush and it has changed me a lot. I've changed to the Cold Hearted Kid.

CHK